I figured this thread was the right one to get all of my anxiety out of the system. My DS is 8 months now, we started weaning when he was 6,5 months. We decided with my DH to try for another baby, and I needed to restart my cycle.We are in such a good place right now, my job allows me to be away, because my DH took most of my responsibilities. We run a business together. He is doing such a great job at it btw. Really proud of him, as dad and partner.
So one feeding at a time, every week or two. Up until yesterday, I BF my baby once at night. We give him Hipp BIO formula which my ped said in his opinion is best. I did some research and figured if there is a chance it hass less chemicals I will take it. I change it sometimes with Combiotic version of it, it has lactis bacteria just like BM to support his intestines. All of this to give my baby second best food and make me more calm about risks and cons of FF.
He started teething yesterday, we have 1 tooth out. Tonight was rough, but I know it could be much worse. He didn't eat much during the day, so I knew he might be hungry. I put him close to me and as soon as he latched we both realised there is not much milk in. He bit me so hard:( first time ever, so I didn't know how it's like. My DH made 5 oz of formula right away. I try not to give him too much, because he might start to replace day feedings. We've gone that road once before.
I worked really hard to drive my milk supply up when he was 2 months. We didn't have an easy start. Cracked nipples, blood, feeding through silicone things for 1,5 months (dont know how you call them), clogged milk canal with a size of a wallnut for more than 2 weeks, 2 week break when I got strong allergy on God knows what. We went through all of that.
So here I am, ending BF because as soon as we started weaning my milk supply went downhill. Still not pregnant, didn't get a period yet. I used to know when I was ovulating so I pretty much know I haven't yet. My progesterone level is really low. My DH got tested and he has to work on his testosterone levels as well, loose some weight. We've been that road before, because we waited 2 years for our baby boy.
I am mourning BF, my time with DS, the idea of him being dependent of me, needing me to keep him healthy. I know trying for second baby might take some time again, so I'm second guessing weaning. I'm considering restarting BF if its possible, but I know it was a necessary decision on the other hand. I feel like a bad mother, like I could do more for my baby, BF him for at least a year. I am really sad. All these feelings just when he is teething are not helping.
I think I would like to know, if my feelings are normal. If someone went through similar issues.
Thank you for a place like this, where I could write all this down and send in the space:)