Thanks for checking in ladies. Things here unfortunately have not improved and I am still (for the most part) unable to get DD to latch, and if I do it is with the help of DH using a syringe to dribble milk over the breast to trick her into latching and sucking, and also using the nipple shield. So, I made the decision this weekend to stop pumping for a number of reasons. Along with everything I mentioned about the entire process, I have missed my DS terribly as well. Inevitably the first day I stopped pumping I was extremely engorged as the breasts were not being emptied by either DD or the pump, but the day following I felt okay...likely because my supply is quickly dropping as the pump was the only thing sustaining it. So, I still offer the breast at each feed but I suspect within a few days things are just going to run its course.
Not an easy decision for me, a very emotional one, but one I think benefitted our family as a whole. I think I can serve my family better being a happy mommy knowing DD is fed and full vs the emotional basket case I was trying to force something that just wasn't working for us.
In any case, this is where we are at. I sincerely appreciate everyone's support. You ladies are all rock stars at cheering on those who need it the most, always with the upmost understanding, and without being judgmental, so thank you
