Thank you. I'm strangely peaceful, perhaps in a bit of denial. I feel guilty because I already find it hard to have good one to one time with each of my kids. I feel it's unfair to throw an extra one in. Hubby wanted to stop at four. I haven't told him yet as he's been out late working most nights this week. I'm kinda happy to,have had the chance to process this a bit before telling him. I'm already stressed with four so scared about five. BUT, given these few guilty, negative feelings, I don't feel excited (I'm sure that will come), but I do feel very peaceful. I did pray a while ago saying that one day I think I'd like 5 but it would have to be an accident as I wouldn't have the guts to purposefully try for a fifth, and here we are. Wouldve liked the age gap to be a bit bigger, but they'll have fun I'm sure.