Gosh this is hard. It was horrendous the first time, so I'm happy that we are further ahead than then, but I find it all so distressing. Maybe because of the history there?
Feeding should be easier than this, it's such a cornerstone of the early days.
I'm battling engorged breasts and a baby who will suddenly decide that even though he's hungry, he will definitely NOT feed no matter what we do, and will just scream for a while instead. Yesterday for the last couple of feeds he wore himself out crying beforehand and I bailed and put him onto his preferred side to at least get something into him.
He's draining the breast well, especially at night, and definitely knows that eating more at night is a good thing. I have an awful lot of milk so he should grow fast!
I just can't wait to get to the stage where I just pop him on and away he goes, yk? But I don't want to wish this time away, either.
I just need a way to feel better about it not being easy, I guess.
Hold my hand for a bit?