Hi everyone
Just wanted to pop along here and update you all and thank you again for your kind words.
We are a week into a new routine and new breakthrough in naps - we are still not all the way there but she is consistently having a long lunchtime nap every day now - 1.5-2.5 hours mostly with no assistance from me!
Its a miracle and a breakthrough and FINALLY I feel like the normal me, mothering my baby and falling in love with her all over again.
The difference in both of us is amazing - mathilda is so much happier when she is awake, not resisting her sleeps, feeding well, sleeping through the night most nights and is generally now a really happy content baby - a far cry from a week or so ago.
I am feeling completely different, havent felt that awful stress and despair for over a week and feel like my old self, it is wonderful!!
Slight anxiety creeps in when I worry it wont last but for now, life is good!