Hi,
Thank you so much for responding. I could really use some advice. I will try to give you a better idea of our schedule and how we got to this point. This is my first baby and I admit that I held her to sleep (except at night) until she was three months old and too big (born 9.5 lbs) to hold in the sling anymore during her naps. On me, she slept great - 2 hour morning, 1.5 afternoon and then a 30 minute nap before bed. She had a startling reflex at this point that was so bad that we could not put her on her back w/o a swaddle... but she was already 16 lbs and breaking out of all her swaddles. Once she could roll over to her tummy, I started trying to put her in her crib. I'll admit that against my gut feeling, we tried letting her cry through some night wakings at about 4 months b/c she was waking every 45 min - 1 hour and no matter what we did, she would not let us set her down. I couldn't do it though as it just felt wrong and she would cry until we came in (not the 30 minutes they tell you it will take). I didn't know what to do, so I started feeding her a little, on the advice of a doctor, to get her tired and signal to her she was to go to bed or take a nap. What ended up happening was that she started to fall asleep while feeding and then I could set her down and she would sleep at night, but naps were always erratic - some were 1.25 hours and others only 25 minutes. I was so relieved she was getting sleep that I let it go on for too long and then finally realized that she was using me as a prop. I did all kinds of research and found the baby whisperer. I read her book on solving problems and everything she says just seems to make sense and I like that I can be with my baby instead of leaving her to cry by herself. I did it for two weeks and my daughter screamed for an 1 - 2 hours every night for 14 days. Naps were a bit longer, but only because I went up and put my hands on her back from 20 - 50 minutes into a nap. Even then, she sometimes woke up and when I tried not going in, she always woke up. So, the problem wasn't resolved, but it was better. The thing we noticed is that she does not seem to have a self - soothing mechanism. She won't take a pacifier or a lovey. Then, we took a vacation and everything got worse and she reverted back to waking every hour in the night and no naps. I've now been back a week from vacation and she is napping 25 minutes again and waking several times in the night. Instead of crying, she is playing in her crib. We are trying the pu/pd method, but it seems like she's just adapted to it and is using the crying to get us to come in with her, but then just playing - it's weird and I have no idea what I'm supposed to do with that??? She has just learned to go from laying down to sitting up and also cut her first tooth yesterday, so there are lots of changes, but she still needs sleep...
This is obviously really hard on me to be up at night all hours and then the whole day is spent trying to get her to sleep and stay asleep to no avail, but my anxiety stems from feeling like she is not going to be able to thrive and feel as happy without being rested. I feel as if this could be damaging her and I'm so worried about it. I know that she is OT b/c on days where she gets rest, she is a different child then when she doesn't. She is gregarious, smiley and interactive on restful days and nights and completely expressionless and kind of 'deadpan' on the many days she does not nap. It is very noticeable to my whole family and worrisome.
Here is our day and night starting this morning:
7:30 - Awake
7:30 - Feed
7:30 - 9:30 - play until starts to rub eyes
9:30 - nap ritual and into the crib
9:30 - 10:00 - she plays and cries off and on (this is when I go in b/c she's crying and she will just start to laugh or smile)
10:15 - I finally get her to sleep with pu/pd
11:10 - awake (I had to keep her asleep by putting hands on back)
11:30 - feed solids and breast fed right after
11:30 - 2:30 - play
2:30 - go up for nap
2:30 - 3:45 - plays in crib, but is rubbing eyes and yawning the whole time (again we play the game where she cries to get me in there)
3:45 - feed and then do pu/pd to finally get down
4:10 - Awake and crying until I pu and then acts happy
4:10 - 5:30 - Play
5:30 - feed solids, bathe and ready for bed
6:30 - breast feed and put in bed
6:30 - 7:15 plays and cries off and on in crib
7:15 - pu/pd to get to sleep
8:00 - awake again - pu/pd to sleep
We didn't get to the third nap since she played through the second one. She will wake again between midnight and 3 and play/cry for 1 - 2 hours off and on as she has done every night for the last week). Then we feed around 3 - 4 and then back to sleep usually until 6am (today was the latest she has ever slept).
On average, I would say she gets 11.5 hours of sleep per 24 hours which doesn't seem to be enough. I really look forward to your thoughts, suggestions etc. Thanks in advance!!