Well, now I'm totally discouraged. This whole time I've been doing BW thinking I was supposed to stay in his room and help him get to sleep. I mean, all that really is for me is sitting beside his crib, giving the occasional pat (sometimes sh/pat) and holding him down during the jolts. I usually stay in there for 15 minutes. Now I feel like I have enabled him and he is not able to fall asleep without me. Great. I get so confused with this stuff - sometimes it seems to contradict itself.
This morning was not a good start to me trying to extend the naps for the day - it took me an hour to get him to go to sleep and only then because he was laying on me - I figured at that point, better to have him get some sleep (and me) than to have an OT baby. He slept for 40 minutes, stirred and then slept for about 12 minutes more until I got him up to feed. I didn't get any sleep at all, because the whole time I was thinking about all this stuff.......
Ok, so I'm currently in his room, just put him down - he resisted about 15 minutes ago so I decided to get him back up and do some low key activity for a bit and then try again. He' looks to be going to sleep....I'm sitting next to his crib but I'm kind of backed away from it further than normal and I'm only going to intervene if I feel like he really needs it. How does that sound?
Sorry, I just have no faith in myself anymore (I know I feel like a big cry baby about this whole thing, I mean, c'mon we've all been through this, so I should stop feeling sorry for myself) keep second guessing everything now.
Ok, enough of that for a bit....
a couple of more q's that I thought of:
Do you think I should eliminate the Dream feed or I guess I should ask, will it hurt the situation if I do eliminate it. DH asked if we could stop it for a few days to see if that helps (so far nothing - he's been waking up 1st night at 10:45, second night at 11:30 to feed. We've fed him and he's gone back down pretty easily - are there any advantages/disadvantages to doing the DF rather than just feeding him at that time when he wakes?
And here's the other thing.....when he wakes up at night sometimes he isn't crying - he's just making noise and kicking around. I've decided this week to wait a few extra minutes to see if he settles down himself and he hasn't yet - he kicks himself out of the swaddle and sometimes when I go in finally he's laying horizontally in his crib. Should I be letting him try to settle himself more? It seems like he can't do it on his own. This morning he woke at 7:45 and we start at 8, so I just left him in there while he kicked around to see what would happen - he didnt' get upset, but he didn't go back to sleep either. Just wondering what I should do, if I should at times when he does this for naps after 45 minutes, should I leave him be - I feel like if I do he'll just lay there until I go in. I just sometimes feel like he yells out for me to come in - but he really is just doing it to see if I will.....have I really lost it?
I've decided to post yesterday's day here so you can see what a messed up day looks like:(yesterday we both slept till 8:30am because he woke up at 6:45 and I got him to go back to sleep but it took a while)
E 8:30 woke up and fed 6oz
A 8:45-10:00
S took a bit to get him down 10:30-11:00 only 30 minutes, so I tried to extend here with PU/PD....won't do that again - he got very upset. I continued to try and get him back to sleep until his next feed.
E 12:00 fed 6oz
A just a bit of A time here, he seemed really tired (maybe OT?)
S so started at 12:30 trying to get him down - went down pretty easily, but only slept for 45 minutes. Here I tried to extend it using pu/pd and sh/pat but he got upset and frustrated. Finally I put him in the swing, he didnt sleep but he sat contently until his next bottle.
E 3:30 6oz
A still seemed really tired, so just a bit
S 4:15 - 6:15 so I gave up and slept with him on me on the couch for 2 hours.
E 6:30 (do it early here for clustering/top off) 6 oz
A took a stroller ride around the block and then did bathtime and jammies, and nighttime routine.
E 7:30 top off 4oz
S 8:15 took a bit to go down tonight (he usually goes pretty easily by
E waited for him to wake (skipping DF for a bit, see above) 11:30 6oz
S back down very easily
1:15a awake fussing, but not crying, kicking around. Went in, reswaddled, gave him binky(paci) and he went right back to sleep, again I stay in there 15 minutes to ensure that he's asleep)
E 3:45 woke and was hungry, fed 6oz, went back down, not quite as easily as before, took 30 min instead of 20.
6:20 awake - kicking around, fussing, left him there for 5 minutes to see if he would settle (watched him on the video monitor) and when he didn't, went in, felt that he was wet (full diaper - he just got over being sick and is still on amoxicillin) so I changed him, and his clothes, reswaddled, sat with him for a bit in the dark, quietly and then put him down - took 3 times of 20 minutes to get him back down (he was almost there twice and then woke up)
7:00 back to sleep
7:45 heard him wake, cooing and kicking, left him be until 8am
8am started today's EASY.
Sorry this is so long, let me know if you need more info (yea, right)
Hey - I was in here and he fell asleep on his own
small success....just rubbed his cheek for W2S - problem is, I'm so tired myself that I forgot to look and see what time he fell asleep
Again - thanks for all of your help and for listening to me.
Dana