Hi Ladies
I can't seem to pump anymore. I pumped a lot for the first 3/4 months as DD was slow to gain weight and I was constantly trying to increase supply. I pumped religously if I missed a feed (restaurant loos/department store loos/in the car - you name it). I could never pump buckets but always managed a let down and a few ounces at least. When DD was about 6 months I was so sick of pumping that I stopped. During the day, I only left her between feeds and at night I would come home a little later than the normal dream feed and feed DD late.
DD is now 9 months and I really want to be able to leave for longer than a 3/4 hour period. I feel like I need this time to myself occasionally if I am to continue breastfeeding. Today I went out for the first time, planning to pump. All you English girls will get a giggle from this. So I'm under massive pressure to buy an outfit for DD's christening but just can't seem to shop (after all, its been at least 18 months since I've bought anything dressy), at feed time, I go into the disabled loo in Harvey Nicks (smart department store for the internationals) thinking I'd have more space to spread out my bits. Turns out there is no loo seat, so I'm sitting on the floor with my top off and my pump/battery pack/picture of DD on my phone at the ready. Tried for about 20mins and absolutely nothing!!!! I couldn't get a let down.
Has this ever happened to anyone else and did you mange to ever pump again? I didn't get engorged (I never do) and it worried me a little that when I got home to feed DD at 6.30pm (last bfeed having been at 11am) she didn't seem to take a bigger feed than usual at that time. The only thing I'm trying to focus on, is that I never get engorged/hard boobs. A week ago I was feeding 3 times a night for a week/10 days (as DD was sick), then one night she returned to 1 night feed and I woke up the next morning a tiny bit full and that was the only effect.
I'm worried about 2 things, I don't have a stash, I only have enough for 2 more feeds in the freezer and would really like DD to have EBM when I am out but even more importantly I'm worried that if I miss a feed occasionally and can't pump, my supply would suffer. I have worked SO hard to breastfeed for this long but I really am ready to start having a little me time.
Any advice/experiences would be really appreciated.
Molly