Baby Ian is almost 9 weeks old and our pediatrician has suggested that I might need to stop breastfeeding. I am really sad.
In the last month we have determined that Ian has reflux/heartburn and colitis, hence my lack of presence on the site. He is often in pain and screaming. He has cried so much recently that he has almost lost his little voice.
We have modified my diet, tried different formulas for supplemenation, and added/discontinued medications. I am now milk, soy, and wheat free. Ian now eats Neocate.
He continues to have blood in his stools. He seems better tonight since we discontinued the Reglan. Tonight we are also trying no breast milk.
When I had him at the pediatrician today, before he started getting better, I commented that I did not want her to take eggs away from me as I have such a limited diet already. With a sympathetic look, she said that breastfeeding is the next thing she is going to take away from me.
I started crying tonight thinking that this afternoon's feed is likely the last time I will get to feed him. I am crying now thinking about it.
I love breast feeding and don't like the idea that it is being taken away from me. I do know that is likely best for Ian if I do. I did mention to DH that I will likely feed him one last time before it is really over so I can really enjoy it and take it all in. Today's feed was surrounded by sleep deprevation and shot nerves.
Hugs please.
Wendy
