thanks honey
It started cos I took the banket out of her window sunday so i could get to the window to clean it and get rid of condensation, its an old sliding sash window and just runs with condensation. well there was some mould
on window, so the blanket went in wash basket and I figured as its winter now it wouldn't be a problem at nap times
Monday was first nap with just a black out blind and curtains!! to vlack out room, DP was left in charge, Lily was pretty hypo monday morning so I knew she would struggle to get to sleep. Anyway when I got home Lily was down stairs and DP told me there was no way she was going to go to sleep in that light room, he said he had been up to her a few times but she was just lying there wide awake. Personally I think he went up to often then gave in, so of course today she tried her luck with me, "i'm not tired!, it's too light in here!" (we had already blacked window out again) "come and talk to me mummy, where's daddy?".... I think she just thought I would get her up if she kept it up like daddy had
but honestly today I really do qualify for the award today, I don't like myself much today and I really don't like how I have spoken to Lily
oh yes to make my day worse Lily wanted to put on some perfume this morning and put on my nans perfume, I kept a bottle so I can still smell her and being a tired mess that caused me to break down in floods of tears in front of Lily about how much I miss nanny and wish Icould still talk to her and cuddle her
anyhooooow, I've had 3 glasses of wine an I'm going to go to bed and put an end to this horrible day.
Heres hoping tomorrow is a better day for all of us
