Hi Melinda - welcome! Feel free to use this post as a sounding board for yourself as well. (((hugs))) I'm sorry you and your LO are going through this too. It's frustrating isn't it. Very interesting about rice - we appeared to have a reaction too! But now I'm not sure if it's GI related or allergy related or what.
Yes - I've lost a lot of weight - I'm about 30lbs below my prepregnancy weight - I'm eating lots trying to keep my supply up and to not lose more than a lb or two a week, but that can be challenging. Just keep in mind it can take a few weeks for the milk protein to get out of your system and then a couple weeks to get out of his. I think we saw a big change around 3-4 weeks after going so strict. If you are introducing new foods I would really go w/the oatmeal or avocados if you can. I think they have both been helping my supply - and especially w/getting easy, fast high calories in w/good fats (through the avocado). But I completely understand about being scared to introduce anything, you just never know what the reaction will be.
Wendy and Shivi - thanks for asking how I'm doing. Wendy - you hit the nail on the head regarding developing a fear of food. It's gotten a little better - but I've had anxiety dreams where I've had a "bad" food and I'm just panicked and freaked out and trying to vomit to get it out.

And even in every day routines (like making cookies w/DD1) - I have a moment of panic asking myself "did I like that icing off my finger? did I mix the silverware?" It is a little worrisome. Like Melinda I would prefer to not go to formula - however I will be trying a little of the Neocate because I have to know that there is SOME type of back up for DD if my supply diminishes and my frozen stash is gone. Especially when it's time to start solids - I don't if my supply will keep up - I so so so hope so, but I don't think I can bank on it.
Shivi - what's SD?
We got a GI appointment for Feb. 12. That is perfect to me - Gwyneth will be 6 months old at that time and either doing much better or very much needing the appointment. I so hope they don't have to do a scope - that really makes me sad - she's such a sweet little thing, I don't want her to have to go through any unneccesary prodecures. But it may give us some answers, so we'll deal with it when we get there. Also - I have been referred to one of the best ped allergists in the area and will be calling him this week to see if when it would be beneficial to come in.
Last night DH bought a bottle of organic red wine and persuaded me to have a glass. It was pretty great! I didn't have to feed Gwynnie until 4 am (from 7) so it was most likely out of my system - but I'm interested in seeing how it goes. So far today she's been great. Would love to add wine to my diet!

Well, we are just trying to stay very positive and upbeat and move forward as best as we can. For the most part things are going very well - it's when I look ahead that I get very anxious. We'll just have to take it one step at a time! We have a weight check soon, I'll let you know how it goes.

Tari