Last BF

[*Janet*]

Emma, I stopped 2 weeks ago too. Just too much for me a working and traveling mum.

I was so emotional as well as I fed DS one last time - the same day he turned 8 mths. I was feeling guilty like you, wondering if I should reverse the decision. The next day, I tried to slip in in one last BF. Guess what DS refused the feed. He self weaned. I gave him a bottle and he finished in record time.

My consolation is that since he is now FF he is STTN. Before that, no...... Awful NWs. I was still BF for NW at 7 mths. In hindsight as a working mum, I maybe stressed myself too much with BF and coping with the NWs then.

Hope you feel better today and I think we should give ourselves a pat on the back. Well done to 8 mths of nursing

[Vicku]

Huge {{{hugs}}} Emma sweetie! You've done such a good job and I am sure you've made the right decision for you and D that this is the time. Be proud of how far you've come, and let yourself cry and be sad too. It is an emotional change and I bet getting first AF now too isn't helping you feel less emotional. Lots of love

[~Faye~]

Oh Emma. Hugs sweetie. It's so hard. I still mourn that I don't bf and won't again. BUT, for us it was a necessary and much needed thing. It was right for that time. I had to stop when I did for my emotional wellbeing. For you, you have your own reasons for stopping. But it is the right time to be stopping. Months down the line you may mourn the end of feeding but you will always k ow you did what was best for this moment in time. That reason will never change and never stop being the right reason.

So many more hugs, I feel your pain

[~inbalance~]

More (((hugs))) from me Emma, hope you are doing ok. 

[~Emma~]

I am ok, it helps that DH does the early morning bottle but I have so missed it today. No snuggles.  I just wasn't expecting this huge upset over it.

 I have a couple of friends that are still BF'ing their bubs and I think seeing that will be quite upsetting. Dont know why.

 There was a lady BF'ing her baby on the beach yesterday. The little monkey was wriggling a pulling off and on (btw I was looking very discreetly!!), Mummy was getting quite frustrated with it and I did have a wee chuckle at what these wee monkeys can be like but at the same time felt very sad.

 She is so active and not one for having wee cuddles and I am finding myself getting those cuddles at bedtime when she doesn't settle. Creating bad habits perhaps but needs must at the moment and we are both enjoying it. I just need to find a way to get us to have that time together again without the BF. I've been thinking back to when she was first born and she latched on in the MOTN in the hospital and I was so elated. Even through all that pain in the 1st couple of weeks the overwhelming sense of pride and joy that we had managed it (didn't with DS) got me through. Made me feel very wanted and needed. I look forward to when those memories dont make me shed a tear of sadness and mourning.

 Thanks for the hugs and support, I'm being silly really I suppose.

[shivi]

I look forward to when those memories dont make me shed a tear of sadness and mourning.

still have tears in my eyes....at your post and the fact that my monkeys gave up before I was ready :-(((

Huge huggles }}}}}}}}{{{{{{{

[~Faye~]

 Thanks for the hugs and support, I'm being silly really I suppose.

You aren't at all. I think it's just another sucky part of being a mother and woman. Emotions seem to get us at the most unexpected times

[Hedgehog17]

*Hugs* Emma 

You did a lot better than I did, mine dried up at 6.5mo 

Now I'm glad I'm not BF because DS is a wriggler and a biter and he has 6 teeth 

D is at an age where they are very wriggly and just want to be active and in at everything and it's very hard to get milk into them, especially when they have to work at it in BF!

I think you have made the right decision 

Meh to the AF though 

[~inbalance~]

Not silly at all Emma, please don't feel that way!  These are very valid feelings, so be kind to yourself. 

[Shiv52]

{{{{{hugs}}}}}

Not even a little bit silly.  Be kind to yourself hun but know you did an amazing job xx

[Lilah'sMommy]

{{{HUGS}}}, honey.

[*jazzberry*]

Adding to the ((hugs))l -am dreading th day when I have to go through this for the third and last time

8 months is fantastic - I will be delighted if I manage to do it this time for as long as you have!  Hope those feeling subside soon

[bjutka1]

Oh Emma, I can't belive how similar our situation and feelings are. I'm going through the same and finding it so hard. With DS I had to stop at 7 months because I was pregnant with DD. It was really hard to stop but nothing in comparison to what it's like this time. He wanted to stop himself because I didn't have enough milk for him and was happy to take the bottle.

This time I thought DD will never even have a bottle and I can go on for a year or longer, but after months of EDs I have to stop at 5 months. She loves to feed and I love feeding her but my milk makes her sick no matter how strict my ED is. It's a terrible feeling but she is better on HAF. If I do skin to skin to ease the transition, she sucks my neck and whatever skin she can get. I can't stop crying about it.

And I, like you, think back how wonderful it was in the hospital, before her allergies started, and she fed away and slept happily in between and was a settled, happy girl.

[my3girlsjde]

More {{{hugs}}}