Remind me why- It's over :(

[Erin M]

Yes, BFing is SO much easier on a trip!  Nothing to pack! 

[Roseii]

Good luck with the trip and I think it's a great idea to see how you go and reassess when home. Xx

[Fiver]

Hope you have a lovely time away.  Short goals are good

[C&B&E]

How are things going Jenn? x

[Jenn+Ethan+Emily]

Not great She had her weigh in before we left on our trip which was fine. I think the scale was actually off at her last weigh in So her paed what fine with everything. We are on our trip and this girl just does not want to nurse. Every time I try she cries and pushes me away She won't even take much from a bottle so I don't know!

[Erin M]

Agh!  How frustrating!!  Miss Emily, be a good little girl and help yor sweet mama out!!

[Fiver]

Oh rubbish.  Nursing strike is not what you need right now
Hugs and hope tomorrow is a better day

[teilvnav]

Hugs Jenn!!

[Jenn+Ethan+Emily]

Well I think it's over

She just will not have it anymore. Not interested in the least. If she does nurse, she is crying in pain shortly after so I am really wondering if something is bothering her that much that she is associating pain with it I don't know. Its been a very long, frustrating journey but at the same time, it has been amazingly rewarding for me. I remember her laying in her little incubator and just aching to BF her. All those amazing feelings of BFing her for the first time. Waking up in the night and sitting in the complete dark just enjoying her nursing. The closeness that it brought. Laying in bed beside her and her rooting around like crazy trying to find my breast Such a beautiful thing.

Thank you girls so much for all of the support you have given me. It's because of you that I made it this long

[teilvnav]

Aww Jenn, tears in my eyes for you. I know how you feel. 

It's heartbreaking but you gave her the best possible start... she was born sooo small and young and frail, and your BM got her to grow even if there were problems. Good job, hun.

[cuckoochick]

So many hugs (((((((Jenn))))))). You have been amazing to get this far and you should feel so proud of the start you've given Emily.

[Erin M]

Many enormous (((hugs))) Jenn.  I hope that as a silver lining to this all, she'll start sleeping better now. 

[Roseii]

So many hugs Jenn you have done so amazingly well with this, I don't think I would have fed anywhere near as you in your situation, be proud xxxxxx

[Love, laughter, & PJs]

Many hugs, Jenn. 

[Amanda5555]

((((((((HUGS)))))))))- I know the heartbreak of not being able to BF anymore. Sounds like there is something up and that you've tried doing everything in your power to try and overcome.  You have been so strong and brave cheers to you amazing mommy! Don't forget if mama is stressed then baby knows it and that can make every situation worse. So maybe being done going through the grieving process and coming to terms with it will help alleviate some of the stress you've been under and baby will follow suit. It really is ok to stop you have done such a great job!

Also I'm by no means an expert but I've heard of a phenomenon where babies just don't want to BF anymore after a while and just stop. ?I think its called baby lead weaning. Maybe she has just decided she's done?  Also make sure you celebrate your success have a meal you couldn't have while on the ED.

Amanda