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[twogirlsmommy]

It is a hard decision but its funny dh looked at me and was like if you said you wanted to stop and we had a freezer full of breast milk and dd was latching and everything was going well I'd honestly think you were crazy but thats not our situation.  You as a mom or busting your butt to do everything you can and thats all I can ask.  He can be such a good man and a PITA at the same time lol.  Last night I pumped before I went to bed and then pumped at 2am and this morning when I got up.  I did not pump when dh fed dd @ 11pm I slept lol.  To be honest I am kind of burnt out from pumping.....My pump is not my best friend anymore but I will perservere at least until our 1 month check up b/c that will put dh back at work for 2 weeks and on 2 different shifts so that we can at least see how things will work.  I really do wish she had latched and that my milk had come in more though

[creations]

vibes and esp vibes for the coming 2 weeks then if that's your first goal.  I'm really not surprised you are fed up of the pump.  For me (at 4 wks) it was seeing that DS was more aware, eyes open, looking around etc and I was spending every feed time pumping and straight after pumping doing nappy change and helping him to sleep so I never got to be with him awake and gaze or smile at each other. There just came a point where I felt his bonding, interaction and one to one attention was more important than where his milk came from - but it was still devastating to stop.
So many hugs for you xx

[anna*]

((((hugs)))) honey. I don't know if it's a route you want to go through, and I know traditional wisdom has it that once a baby is feeding from bottles you can't get them back to the boob, but there are things you can do to encourage her to latch now that she's that little bit older (just as there are ways to get a breastfed baby to take a bottle if it's necessary). There is equipment that can help if she is used to the faster/easier flow of a bottle, like a pouch of milk with a teeny tube that comes down to your nipple to supplement while you're breastfeeding.

I'm not trying to say that this is what you SHOULD do, only that if you do still want to breastfeed, you don't have to give up on that yet. I hope this is all coming out the right way I am not making much sense today.

[koe2moe]

You are a great mom no matter what!!  Please don't put more pressure on yourself and THAT, too, can affect the flow!  Think positive!!  Stay positive!!   think of freshly baked bread, or your favourite music, anything that wakes up your every single cell!!  Lots of hugs for this week!!  Thinking of you all!  x

[Fiver]

I just wish you were getting some better IRL help.  There must be someone near to you who would be willing to spend the time trying to figure out why she's not wanting to latch and helping find a solution rather than just leaving you to it

And the SNS (supplemental nursing system) Anna mentioned is great - gives you some stimulation and LO gets the automatic reward of milk at the same time.

[twogirlsmommy]

I could call the hospital back again but to be honest they were really not helpful and to get a private lactation consultant which we did with dd1 cost money that unfortunetly we don't have at the moment so we are just doing the best we can and to be honest we knew this going into this pregnancy and the birth that we were just going to try and do the best we can and try not to sweat it if it doesn't work (easier said then done lol)

[Fiver]

*hugs*  Would there be someone else at the hospital you could see for a second opinion?  I really feel like you're being fobbed off and that makes me sad

[Erin M]

Just some more ((((hugs))))) sweetie. 

[creations]

Hugs for today. One day at a time, one feed/pump at a time.
xx

[weaver]

I really do wish she had latched and that my milk had come in more though

I can't imagine how completely frustrating it is for you.  I would be going nuts.  You sound so sane about it. 

~~~~~~~vibes for getting where to want to with it, physically and mentally.  You're doing a brilliant job.

[*Kara*]

Hugs Hun... it is a very hard decision to make... for some reason, the majority of us women feel that BFing is something that we should be able to do... it's the natural thing to do... and it is far from the most natural thing more often than not. 

Like creations, I pumped and supplemented too.. it was exhausting.. DH was only home for a week after DD was born.. I made it to 10 days...  and then had thoughts of relactation around 7 weeks and again at 12 weeks... ultimately, the fear of failing again was too much to attempt it for me...

You are doing so great!

[ZacsMumme]

Only just seeing this now. So many hugs.
Holding your hand - whatever you decide to do.

[koe2moe]

Lots of hugs and vibes!!

[twogirlsmommy]

So I am am day 4 of being by myself and as much as I love dh he doesn't wake when baby cries or when toddler needs him so I am pretty much solo right now and really feeling the effects of that. I'm not pumping as much b/c there is literally no time and at night I sometimes got for sleep unless I'm uncomfortable.  Hello post partum crabby mommy

[twogirlsmommy]

I should also say that at a 6 hour stretch I am only getting 4 ounces and that dd seems to spit the breast milk up more then the formula and she does not seem to like the breast milk as much as she likes formula (totally different eating style with each bottle)  Blah we see the ped on monday so I just have to get thru next week to make it to 1 month.  Some reason my appointment is Monday but she's not 4 weeks till Friday.