Oh it's all gone horribly wrong again. I am seriously at the end of my rope. I read all these desperate cries for help but somehow my DS seems worse than all of those - it's been over 2 years since I had proper sleep. I did the unthinkable and broke down at work today. Thankfully only with a friend but so far I had managed to keep work all for myself, not anything to do with the kids and all that is going on there.
I don't know what to do. WI/WO doesn't appear to be making any difference. He is only a bad sleeper when he is at home - when anyone else has him, he's a great boy. I sometimes think other people must think I am some sort of lunatic, making all this up for attention. Or just a terrible mother, unable to cope (that part is now definitely true!). My husband has taken sole responsibilty for the night wakings and any trouble that comes up after I put him to bed as I thought he was just taking advantage of me going in to him and using it for attention. Oh I don't know anymore - I have been up since 4.45 and am fit to collapse.
I can make a million excuses for it all - new baby, back at work, separation anxiety, yet another illness - but at the end of the day, I need to get some sleep and some semblance of my own life back.
Is there anything for the EXTREME poor sleepers? Or does this come to a natural end eventually - I just need some light at the end of the tunnel. No matter how far away.