Aja,
I know you feel like you're in such a spin, but I think Liam's routine will not be that hard to change around. Just go slowly through the motions. It's easier to taackle one problem at a time and I'm partial to fixing the big issues first. With Liam I would say it's his reversed cycle that needs most attention. Not only for him but for you
A rested and calmed momma is the best thing a baby can have.
Liam is not a very active eater he would take for ever, literally hours filling up. It became very taxing as you said Beca, very emotional.
I think that you are so tired and wound up that maybe your let down has slowed and it's becomes harder for him to nurse. The same thing happened to me when Santiago was 3 months old and he was nursing for 2 hours on one breast!! I went to a lactation consultant and she gave me an earful on the rest that the mommy needs. And she also "commanded" that I drink a beer 30 mins prior to his last feed at night, not the dreamfeed. Can you imagine my
shock. I asked her if she was insane wanting me to pass alcohol to my baby! She explained that by the time he nursed after my drinking only one beer he wouldn't get any of it, but that the phycological factor it had on ME was what was going to change things around. The idea of drinking a beer, to unwind, as something that was only mine would help me relax and would improve my letdown. After 3 days the difference was amazing! I had my daily beer until I weaned him at 9 months. Now, I'm not saying for you to go and drink beer, but that you need something to help YOU relax. To help you not to feel that bf is taxing anymore.
I admit the reason we go back to bed after he wakes at 6 is so I can catch up on my sleep as I'm staying up to dreamfeed, don't get to sleep until midnigh
Go to sleep while waiting for the dreamfeed. Set your alarm clock to 11pm, go nurse him and then go back to bed. You need your sleep, like I was saying above. Can dh give him the dreamfeed with some ebm? Let you have an early night and caych up on some sleep?
I admit the reason we go back to bed after he wakes at 6 is so I can catch up on my sleep as I'm staying up to dreamfeed, don't get to sleep until midnight. So perhaps I should cut this out then? I just hate napping in the day cause I feel like my whole day is shot. But I am willing to do this to get Liam to take the 10 am feeding, then maybe he won't need as much to eat at night?
I do think that early morning nap has to go. It will help him to get his sleep/wake cycles back on track and will hopefully get him hungrier during the day.
I am going to try the sleep forum regarding the pacifier. I am also really concerned about him napping in the day. So I really do need to check out the sleep forum.
Don't even worry about the paci right now
We can take care of the later
We don't want to overwhelm our sweet boy
Regarding his eating:
If I do cut back on his calories at night should I pat and shush him to go to sleep without it? How long can I go if he really starts freaking out? If he wakes up early can I use the pacifier to get him through without a feed? Should I really change Liam and is it too late? I mean is this bad the way he eats? Or is it just more an inconvenience to me? I just would like to be able to follow the EASY routine and that 10Am feed is missing and he's not eating at regular 4 hour intervals.
We're not cutting out his calories. We're just changing the time he gets them. By slowly shortening the night feed and lengthening the day feeds he won't "freak out" at night. Not for the need of calories anyway. He will miss the cuddling he has with you at night and yes, he will need comfort to resettle. Have you tried PU/PD? He's 4 months old and may be able to handle it. My concern with Liam is that his natural sleep cycle is a bit askew. You may think that it's not so bad now that he's 4 months old, but when he's 18 months and waking at night you will probably mind a lot.
I hope you don't feel overwhelmed, this isn't as big a problem as you may think. Shoot for shortening his feeds at night and giving him a proper A time in the morning to help him get back on track.
We're here for you every step of the way
- Beca