Here goes, starting from 10:10pm when he finally fell asleep.
10:20 - placed sleeping in rock n play (normally dont sleep him here, but using to help with reflux for now because it is very inclined) - woke a little when placed but went back to sleep with heavy hands & shhing. Also, I turned on white noise when putting to sleep.
11:27 - Woke, tried resettling in rock n play, was unable, tried to give paci, spit it out. Decided to use as a dream feed.
11:30 - 11:39 - fed left, very sleepy on boob.
11:41 - placed back in rock n play asleep, woke a little when placed, heavy hands & shhing put him back to sleep
12:43 - woke, tried settling in rock & play, tried paci. Began screaming. Continued thru walking around the house until 12:49 when I poured a little breastmilk into his mouth and it calmed him enough to take his paci. I found this helps soothe his throat but if I try to feed him then he wants a full feed even though he is not hungry.
12:53 - seems asleep but afraid to put him back in rock n play to early for fear we will have to start all over again. I think crying hurts his throat which makes him scream and from there it is a vicious cycle.
1:00 - placed back in rock n play
1:08 - woke, wouldn't resettle, cries quickly escalated to screams, did breastmilk trick, took paci
1:23 - back in rock n play
1:29 - woke, wouldn't soothe in rock n play but cries did not get hysterical. Let me walk / rock him back to sleep wihtout (too) much fight.
1:43 - back in rock n play. I am beginning to feel a clog form in my left breast (happens every week & a half or so)
1:52 - woke, gave him a few mins to resettle himself, cries escalated, wouldn't soothe in rock n play, soothed quickly & easily in arms. I am feeling my resolve crumble. So much easier to bring into bed with me and feed every time he stirs, but I will try to be strong.
2:03 - back in rock n play
3:06 - woke, was able to give paci & resettle in rock n play (woohoo, little successes!) Rewoke a few times but settled in rock n play with paci, shhing, heavy hands & rocking. Finally back asleep for good at 3:20
3:23 - woke, unable to resettle in rock n play. Passed gas. Couldn't settle with walking/rocking. 3:28 - Went ahead & fed (right) as it had been 4 hours and I was leaking. At least it is better than every time he wakes up like I have done the last few days :/
3:39 - took a full feed then straight to sleep & back in rock n play
3:44 - woke, unable to settle in rock n play, I could hear the reflux, picked up to rock & got a burp. Easy to settle with rocking. Turned off white noise as it was obviously doing no good & was keeping me awake.
3:53 - back asleep in rock n play. Passed more gas, thankfully it didn't wake him.
3:57 - woke, passed more gas. Wouldn't settle in rock n play, seemed uncomfortable, but settled easily in arms.
4:09 - back asleep in rock n play. At this point he has only gotten 3 sleeps of over an hr (1:20, 1:06 & 1:04) plus several very very short sleeps. I have slept maybe 2 hours. Maybe. I really, really need help. This just isn't healthy.
4:19 - woke. I can't do it anymore. Pulled him into bed with me and nursed him to sleep on empty right side.
4:29 - back asleep beside me...really tempted to try to move him but the poor kid needs his sleep. Don't know what to do here...
8:00 - awake.so glad I didn't move him as I haven't gotten that much solid sleep in a very long time.
8:07 - fed left. Very sleepy on the boob. Normally we wake up around 8, but I feel like I should let him sleep if he wants due to bad sleep last night.
8:19 - asleep
9:25 - latched back onto mostly empty left. I would wake but still very sleepy & I need him to remove the clog. Seems like he did.
9:33 - asleep
I will keep him awake next time he wakes and start a new post from there and this one is quite long already.
Please, help me.