have such mixed feelings about Natalie still refusing the breast. It's apparent and has been since I was in labor with her that this is a child who does things on her own schedule, who has her own agenda, and we'd all just better get out of her way!
It's neat to see how well she does with a regular shot glass and with a straw, and sometimes it's handy to just put liquid into a cup and stick it in front of her and down the hatch it goes! Seriously, this child can inhale 4-6 ounces in 10-15 seconds!!!
But it was SO NICE to be able to go to her when she woke in the night hungry and have a nice snuggly moment or three and put her back to bed happy, even if it only tided her over for 3-4 hours. Now I can't tell when she's hungry, when she's thirsty, when she's both - last night I was up with her for almost TWO HOURS while she chowed down on Kix and sucked down I lost track of how much formula, even though she'd been eating almost nonstop all afternoon after her nap, while other nights she'll sleep straight through till 8AM now!!! (THAT I like, lemme tell ya!
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At least I don't need to worry about my caffeine intake any more (which is WAAAAY too much), and if I have a cold I'll be able to take whatever for it without wondering if it's safe for her. I may have enough milk to pump this evening (I last pumped midday yesterday after a nearly 2-day break and got 4.5 ounces), but the supply is DEFINITELY winding down.
But this is the last PG for me, assuming the Good Lord isn't planning on surprising me with another pregnancy now that I'm actually 40.
(Adoption I'd consider, but being PG was HARD for me!) I guess it didn't occur to me that stopping nursing would happen this soon, or that it would be so out of my control.
Ahh, the bittersweet moments of motherhood!
