GIRLS, YOU'RE WONDERFUL!
YOU'RE ALL SO FAR AWAY BUT YOU ARE THE ONES SO CLOSE TO ME BECAUSE YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL.
I SPENT THESE DAYS READING THIS FORUM, I READ FOR THE FIFTH TIME TRACY'S BOOK, I TRIED TO DO MY BEST. BUT FIRST OF ALL I TALK A LITTLE WITH MY PARENTS.I NEEDED TO RELAX.I WAS SO TIRED. THEY SAID I DON'T HAVE TO BE SO UPSET BECAUSE BABY CAN FEEL IT. THEY SAY:IF YOU DON'T SUCCED TODAY, YOU WILL TOMORROW.
NOW MY LITTLE BOY HAS NAP IN THE MORNING SLEEPING ALMOST BY HIMSELF IN HIS BED.SOMETIMES I PUT HIM DOWN AWAKE, SOMETIMES ALMOST SLEEPING, ANYWAY HE'S VERY RELAXED. THEN IN THE EVENING IS MORE DIFFICOULT, BU IF I TAKE HIM ON TIME, WE CAN RELAX TOGETHER AND LISTEN SOME MUSIC THEN HE FALLS ASLEEP.
IN THE NIGHT I DECIDED TO LET HIM AWAKE UNTILL HE SHOWS ME HE WANNA SLEEP.I DON'T FORCE HIM ANYMORE.IF HE DOESN'T WANT TO SLEEP WE PLAY A LITTLE WITH TOYS, OR I HOLD HIM WHILE I DO SOMETHING FOR TOMORROW AND I EXPLAIN HIM WHAT I AM DOING( MAKE CAMOMILE FOR THE NIGHT, THE TABLE FOR BREAKFAST FOR DADDY....)
IN THE NIGHT I LET HIM SLEEP IN HIS BED AS LONG AS I CAN. WHEN HE WAKES FOR BREASTF I TRY NOT FALL ASLEEP THEN I REPUT HIM IN HIS BED.SOMETIMES I FALL ASLEEP WITH HIM, SO HE SLEEP IN BED WITH US.WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING I SEE HIM BESIDE ME AND I REALIZE I FELT ASLEEP BUT I DON'T REMEMBER. BUT I DON'T GET ANGRY ANYMORE.I THINK IT WILL BE BETTER NEXT NIGHT.
I'M TRYING TO TAKE IT JUST EASY!
IT'S 3 NIGHT BABY FALLS ASLEEP UNTILL 10PM.FOR ME IT'S GREAT.I'M HAPPY.
SO HAPPY AT LEAST I'M GOING TO SLEEP WITH DADDY AFTER A LONG TIME HE WENT TO SLEEP AND I WAS ALWAYS BF OR ROCKING OR DOING SOMETHING TO MAKE BABY SLEEP.
GOODNIGHT, 1000 KISSES TO ALL OF YOU.
TERESA