Over the course of the last two years, Tracy & I have emailed letters. We talked about our cancers, the scariness of it all, and she really opened up to me about her fears. She called me last July, and we talked about parenting our teenagers and she helped me with my preschooler as well, all out of the goodness of her heart. Just out of the blue, I pick up the phone and Tracy Hogg is on the other end!
We met at a book signing, and she used Jonah as an example in front of a group of parents. He adored her, as did my DH. We both took pictures, and she said she placed one of the three of us (her, me and Jonah) on her board, next to her family and some celebrities. How special I felt!
Here's an excerpt from one of her recent letters to me:
One day at a time, my dear friend enjoy all that happens even flying toys from your son because we only truly have today so don't waste it filling your head with those dreadful thoughts of cancer I do it so I know that it can drive you in sane and we are survivors and not victims to this disease hopefully we have learned to take care of ourselves a little better even if it is just to relax in a hot bath and read a single page of a book. I don't have the skills to look after me so I'm learning and it is very hard. I will always be here for you no matter what if you need anything because you are a special person in my life who has brought me faith hope love and all unconditionally and for that no words of thanks are enough. I love you, Tracy.
I'm so sad, so angry that I've lost another friend to cancer, but I feel so blessed to have known her and to have these letters that I can reread a thousand times. She has given me so much. My heart aches with loss, and my love goes out to her Nan and her daughters.
Love from Starryeyed