Erin----((((HUGS)))) to you. It IS such a hard time! I have cried many tears, although not as many this time around as I did with my previous 2 kiddos...but nothing is better, lol. My night sounds pretty much like yours was and today I kept having to resettle over and over...we weren't even getting to our standard 35min, but 27 min was our time today. I don't know about you, but when I am sooooo sleep deprived and having to be "on" all the time, I get so worn down emotionally. Is there anyway for you to get out or have your own time for a bit?? The last 2 evenings, after kind of hellish days, I have gone out for a couple hours with girlfriends, and it has re-energized me.