Ok. I'm just so scared to go back to what we were having a couple days ago. Like literally scared. I can feel the anxiety building in me thinking about it. It really is awful. I don't want to do the wrong thing and making things worse. I'm sure he's felt my anger all those nights he wouldn't sleep, I'm pretty sure I've got some work to do to rebuild his trust, I know I've traumatised him, it was actually safer to leave him behind the door and talk to him than to go to him so I had to do that, now I need to work on our relationship. He's changing preschool next week. I just know that's going to affect him too and that worries me again