Friday was great, LD coming at very feed, yesterday morning 7am let down after 40sek. But at 11am it started again, no LD. At 2:30 I was not at home and didn't manage to feed but I managed to express (250ml!!!), he took the bottle with my milk - 160. At 5pm I tried but no let down but maybe it was too close to previous feed. At 6:30pm he was hungry for sure and we tried for 30min, no let down:(. He took the bottle after the feed 140ml - from what I expressed at 2pm.
At 10pm I expressed 240ml, he took a DF of 180ml. Today morning - no let down but he probably got something without let down as boobs were full, I felt that. I tried to give him a bottle - first time with a formula but he was not interested. Now we are heading towards my mum. I have bottle and formula with me. Will try to feed him as much as he wants but if during normal feeds time there will be no let down I will offer bottle. I stop expressing during day. I really have enough, it's making me terribly stressed and guilty and I need to make peace with myself.
Will try to feed and keep him a lot at breast but if it doesn't work, I am trying to tell myself I did everything and in the end fed is best.
But it's not easy:(.